Unfortunate Forgiveness

on a scale,
i weigh my thoughts,
my actions, my wounds
pertaining to you.....
so far, bad is what
the scale is screaming
And unfortunately I Forgive you
This is not the first
Unfortunate Forgiveess,
That ive dished you way...
But there isnt much i can say....
Im only here when you want me...
and im quiet as can be
when it comes to you dirty deeds
and you caring about me....
And unfortunately
I forgive you....
But is shouldnt be this way....
Im fed up with your lies
And all the games you play, so
My Unfortunate Forgiveness
I give you to no more......
Because my Unfortunate Forgiveness
Is walking out the door!!!

No Longer will i cry

As my eyes seem to fill
and my heart seems to fall
I think to myself this isnt me at all
As my eyes grow weary
from my extra long nights..
I think to myself, Why am i still puttin up this fight
As my face seems to tighten
and my body begins to weaken
I think to myself where do i find a reason...
As my hurt seems to linger
and my anger begins to rise
As my heart starts to break
I begin to realize...
This isnt for me..
The Love i have is real....
You may not see it...
But to me this is a big deal...
So i leave behind
All the memories
and to u i say goodbye....
For no longer can i take this

No longer Will i cry!!!

Mr.Wrong

Sitting here wondering what should i do now
should i go out side and find someone new should i just wait till someone
sweeps me off my feet?? or should i just play the roll and say fuck these niggaz im on my own??
here on this laptop looking at pictures that we once tooked i'm such a fucken fool to think a man like you would be Mr. Right
i mean you approched me like a gentlemen mr nice guy the one that smelt good always had something nice to say the one that always had a smile on his face
boy only if i new you was a low down dirty dogg which you are in fact but only if i new or seen threw
you trust me i wouldnt be the women i am today
i mean look at me loo what ive become a crazy mad women that hates men just because of 1
i blame you for treating me the way you do i blame you for making me not trust men and cheat on them because i think thats what there doing to me i mean face it.....
no one knows what love is any more all they care about is SEX....

LOVE what is love???

LOVE what is love???

Thought I was in love with the man of my dreams to come to find out that man didn’t love me. Its time to move on find something new trying to make the past be the past but I’m stuck cause if he only new how I fell in love with him I fell in love hard. But its ok ill get it together from the help of a friend that cares much less not wanting to see me with him. It’s crazy everyone doesn’t want me with him I mean I new all the shit he did to me but I have to put my foot down and say I’m done. I never wanted it to happen I thought he would have change just cuz the fact I told him I loved him I thought he loved me but I guess it wasn’t the same. He stayed yelling at me like I was a fucking child like I wasn’t older than him or even had feeling he gave me mixed emotions to the point one minute he cared the next he didn’t and I don’t need that in my life that’s an unhealthy relationship I mean it came to a point that when we argued I got so mad I used my fist it shouldn’t reach to that point I said but I’m not gonna lie to you I felt damn good

It’s not like he did a lot for me to be in this relationship all he did was feed me give some money from here to there and DICKED me down….and so called Loved me

LOVE what’s love???

I thought I new long time ago but now I’m here confused don’t know what to do sometimes I lay and I cry my self to sleep how sad is that to no everything we had was just my lil FANTASY….. To no that I LOVED you more than you LOVED me??.....

Its going to be hard I no that for a fact but I have to start by just not calling you and leaving you alone because I always put you first I loved you more than I loved my self and that’s suppose to be the other way AROUND……..

LOVE what’s love???

I asked…..

That Bitch!!!!!!

I'm that bitch that makes a mufucka's head spin.
I fuck him until his toes curl, his knees bend, his back arches,
and his head swings from left to right.
Yes, I have the capacity to possess the intimate aspect of his soul, but only temporarily.
How do I do it?
I offer him a high that surpasses any that alcohol, tobacco, or weed produces.
I kiss every single crevice of his body with such sweet, sensual seduction,
That his mind and body pleads for what his mouth refuses to divulge.
Yes, I am that bitch.
And when I salute that Jimmy,
Hell, it's all she wrote.
'Cause my tongue and lips work together to form a safe haven for the dick
Comparative to a triple goose down feathered winter coat.

I'm that bitch that makes a man feel like a man.
I'm that bitch that makes a man feel happy to be a man.
I'm that bitch that makes a man decide he wants to be my man.
Yes, I am that bitch.

And when the new day emerges,
I'm that bitch that feeds her man breakfast in bed:
Ham steaks with the bone in the core, eggs, pancakes, grits, and orange juice.

And I send my King off into the mean cruel world with a few less worries.
Yes, I am that bitch.

Playa Gurl

Some think only men are playa's,
Some think only that can be true,
"Nah dogg she aint neva gonna play you"
Gosh if they only knew
See the after shave i bought you at christmas was the replica of the one i bought him
2-for-1 from Wal-mart boy how can you be so dim!!,
I've fronted you both for a while now,
And neither of you regonise the way i talk so passionately about each and everyone of my guy's,
So i'm meeting you both at four now,
In a resturant just off 58th,
Neither of you expecting the other oh goody this should be great!!
Being a female i should have some feeling,
Being a female i should have a heart but boys you fell for my games and you took them right from the start.

Come As You Are

Why do you step to me
with fake dialect,
false intellect,
trying to impress?
fuck,give it a rest!!
just come as you are
You see, I'm not a materialistic girl
that you think boy-toys
can rock my world,
constant lies,
to ride between my thighs,
patting my behind
no baby..that's not the kind of man
I had in mind
just come as you are
Now don't get me wrong
I know my words are some what strong
but feel me on this..
I love to kiss
and I love to spasm
but..
it's in my soul,
before my hole,
when penetrated,
is where I orgasm
so
just come as you are
You don't need to step low
to peek my flow, yanno?
take my hand
and show me you, the man
that's what I want to see
get to know me
and me you
it's really not that hard to do
when
you come as you are